I have been staring at this blank blog post for hours, trying to come up with the words that could describe the last few days. Or the last few years.
I don't think there are any words, truly, but hopefully these will suffice for now.
Gabby was sleepy and blah last week. Similarly to two years ago, she was extra lethargic and cranky. We made an appointment for her to get blood work done on Friday, just in case.
Friday afternoon, the oncologist called me, and said Gabby's bilirubin levels were high, but it could be caused by the chemo.
"So, go ahead and stop the chemo. Yeah. So... you're done."
And that was it.
Otherwise, Gabby's blood work was normal, and... she's cancer free.
797 days of leukemia, over, in one phone call. Seems so anti-climatic.
It doesn't escape me, how incredibly lucky we are.
Yes, it was terrifying, and humbling, and every little ailment for her was blown out of proportion in our minds. We spent more time cleaning up puke than I care to remember. We watched our other children struggle under the pressure or lack of focus from us. We fought to maintain some normalcy under some crappy circumstances.
But compared to so many other kids in her position, we had it easy. She never needed to be hospitalized after the initial diagnosis. She started school. She was free to go out and live her life.
Going forward, she'll still go to clinic once a month for blood work for the first year, then every other month for the second year, etc. She is scheduled for surgery next week to remove her port.
I wonder, sometimes, how much of this she'll remember. Obviously I'm hopeful that this is the end of the story, and she goes on to live a healthy, vibrant life, the chances are good that she'll experience some long-term effects. That's not pessimism, it's just the reality of the treatments she received. But if she does remember, I hope we've made the experience something she can draw something good from later.
That's a wrap, friends.
I'm so happy :)
ReplyDeleteI'm absolutely thrilled for you : )
ReplyDeleteSo happy for you and your family and especially Gabby!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that she is cancer free and can live a happy life like all children deserve. I can't even imagine having to go through this from her standpoint and yours as a mother. You are a brave woman and Gabby is even braver and strong to have beat cancer! I pray for her continued health and happiness! GOD IS GOOD!
ReplyDeleteI am sooo happy to hear this.
ReplyDeleteMakes me happy. :)
ReplyDeleteI love this. Very, very happy for you all!
ReplyDeleteSoooo happy for Gabby & your family Heather. I know I've expressed this many times to you. She's such a lucky girl to have such a wonderful family that loves her so much. Because of your strength, she is strong! She'll remember what she's had to undergo & this ordeal/trial/setback will be part of the beautiful layer that makes her so special. God is good, God is great. I pray for her lifetime of health & happiness. You too my friend. :)
ReplyDeleteSo relieved and happy for you Heather and I wish other children didn't have to live through this as well - or at least for those who do, that they would have as successful a treatment as Gabby. Peace be with your family now.
ReplyDeleteYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY!!! I love stories like this :) Two weeks ago, a college buddy of mine died of osteosarcoma just three days after his 29th birthday. So right now it makes me extra happy to hear Gabby kicked cancer's ass.
ReplyDeleteI hear you on it feeling anti-climactic. Like, "dude where's my parade?" I had a small party at home with friends where we smashed up my unused meds with a hammer. Maybe that's the kind of thing you guys need?
Proud of you.
ReplyDeleteso incredibly happy for you all, especially Gabby. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is the best blog post I have ever read.
ReplyDeleteYay, what wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteahhhh this made me teary....
ReplyDeleteI am so very happy for you
You are a great mom and Gabby is one strong gal already..she will remember I think and be stronger and surely appreciate all the good stuff in life...
Cancer free...that is pretty awesome.
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i am so so so so so happy for you heather!
ReplyDeletethese type of moments are so great for families, and kiddos!
yay gab!! :)
I'm more of a lurker to your blog (especially since I'm not running too much these days), but I am so happy that you guys kicked cancer's ass!!!
ReplyDeleteI already knew the news, but I just had to read about it again...so very happy for your family!
ReplyDeleteThat is awesome!
ReplyDeleteI found your site through SkinnyRunner and just had to leave a comment (from one mom to another) and say CONGRATS! Hope you are planning an awesome and well deserved celebration.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, beautiful, BEAUTIFUL! I am so happy to read this post. Many warm thoughts and hugs being sent to you and your family tonight. Thank you so much for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeletelove this. i wonder how much kids remember of this stuff too. i hope not much. she's so strong though-shows how brave she is-i hope that's what she remembers.
ReplyDeleteMakes me smile.
ReplyDeleteFor you ALL.
The best.