In January, I skipped almost ALL of my runs. I lost some speed (I mean, what teeny bit of speed I had). But I hit my highest mileage week ever last week, at 19 miles. I ran 10.9 miles, for a distance PR for me. And it wasn't awful.
And that's all I've got for running. I'm feeling pretty bummed today, so I won't be offended if you stop here and just say, NICE 11 miles! I promise.
So today is supposed to be the last day of The Steroid. This entire month, I've been counting down, banking on the fact that it was just 28 days, and she'd be back to her normal, pleasant self.
We had to call the clinic yesterday, because she's LITERALLY eating so much, her stomach was hurting. She can't digest what she's taking in fast enough. So we call, and the nurse tells H, that we can expect this on her NEXT ROUND OF STEROIDS ALSO.
Wait, what?? WHAT?? Next round? Like, more of this??
And I don't know how to deal with that.
She's like a whole different person. An unpleasant, gluttonous, mean person, that I don't even recognize.
Look at this. This was Gabby in August, her first day of school.
This was Gabby this morning.
And that's a super happy face for her. That is about as good as it gets.
When I worked the Operation Jack Marathon the day after Christmas, I remember thinking that I just didn't know how Sam and his family did it. Parenting is hard. I couldn't even begin to imagine parenting a child that couldn't... show you love, and appreciation. I really rely on that feedback from my kids, to know I'm doing right by them.
And here we are. With an unreasonable 4 year old, that hates just about everything we do to her.
I guess there's no point really to this, except to whine.
And now that it's out of my system, I'm gonna stop and work on my fun announcement for later today :D.
you need to vent. you can always call and vent to me. anyhow, all of this will be a distant memory soon. all my love.
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up.Your doing it all pefect !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteFor not running much in January, you sure finished it off with a bang and that huge run!!
ReplyDeleteObviously I don't know what all of this stuff is like with Gabby, but maybe since you have to do another round, she'll get more used to it and become more bearable? Who knows. Hopefully. Poor thing.
So no advice on how to deal with the big food intake?? :(
She's in there, somewhere, I'm sure. I hope you at least get a break in between the rounds of meds. You're doing such a great job with everything!
ReplyDeletehey you did your virtual 5K, you have some temporary family issues but things will get better. And you've more bloggy friends to help you!
ReplyDeleteSorry there's another round. Can only imagine how hard it all is. I'm glad you're using this space to vent. We are here for you.
ReplyDeleteFirst... wow, to go from very little running in January to a 19 mile week and distance PR... good for you. Sounds like you needed to run off some stress.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about Gabby's change in personality. She's still the same girl in there somewhere. Many prayers for you and your family.
Hopefully there will be a break between rounds so you all can come up for air a little. I can only imagine how hard this is -- vent away!
ReplyDeleteAww Heather, I too can't wait till this is all behind you and Gabby is her old self again. Wishing you and your family all the strength and love you need to get through this.
ReplyDeleteMaybe this is preparing you for hormones?? I'm so sorry there are more "rounds". Total suck-fest.
ReplyDeleteI'm a new GFC and Twitter follower via Bloggy Moms ;-)
ReplyDeleteYou are one inspiring woman! And I just want to give your little girl a hug.
Have a good night!
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