1. Baby has about 14 meds to take daily. It's a fight, every single time. We've tried playing, distraction, mixing. She hates it. All of it. She says they're all gross. Which I don't entirely buy, because she also said chocolate milk was gross, so I think she's just being difficult. And I get it, really. I'm sure she's feeling out of control, and grasping to whatever she can. But lordy. So frustrating.
2. I intended to run the FYTO5K. However, I had a spectacular meltdown that involved me being incredibly snippy to the H for a reason that was (a) ridiculous, and (b) not even his fault. It was not my proudest moment. Anyway. Big, fat, DNS for this.
3. I am ITCHING to go run. I am hoping to get at least some miles in this week, and re-start my training plan next week.
4. I'm still undecided on the Princess half. H says I should. But right now, I don't even want to leave the hospital when it's my turn to go home. I'm sure I will be less clingy 7 weeks from now. Right?
4a. The dumb thing is, Baby barely likes me. She really prefers her dad.
5. I am like a black hole of birth certificates. Seriously. I lose them on a regular basis. Which is supremely inconvenient since 4/5 of my family is from another state. Ironically? Ive yet to misplace #2's birth certificate, which is the only one I could replace here on short notice.
6. I've had so.much.coffee in the last week. It's painful to think about.
7. I've been mentally going through all of the things I wanted to do this year - camping, yosemite, maybe Utah/grand canyon. At first I was stoked because, with the exception of skipping our Florida trip, everything else was okay (provided Baby's numbers are cooperating). Until I remembered she also has to be careful about sun exposure. Sigh.
Happy Monday!
Given the circumstances, I think a completely irrational meltdown and a big, fat DNS are COMPLETELY justifiable!
ReplyDeleteI think you should still plan on doing the half. I know that it seems next to impossible to think about leaving your child right now. But, doing something for yourself will help you AND your little one AND your family. It will still be hard to leave in 7 weeks, but it will be good for all of you.
ReplyDeleteAnd, its perfectly acceptable to have a meltdown and to lose things.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
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ReplyDelete2-Yes, meltdown totally justified
3&4-GO RUN woman!
4a-They don't have to be nice to the one they are most secure about. She knows you're solid and that's a good thing.
7-Go to Oregon instead this year... :)
Ugh, this whole thing with Baby just breaks my heart. She seems to keep smiling through it all in your pictures, but I just can't even imagine. I'd be having a fit over taking one pill, let alone 14. Poor little thing. :(
ReplyDeleteIn my family we always had this rule when we already had travel plans arranged and paid for. If something happens and someone can't go, the others still go for them. Um, yeah, we never had to make a decision for the same reason you have. I don't know what I'd do!
Birth certificates are a pain in the ass! Period!
Hang in there!
praying for baby! I hope you also get some rest. I totally think you can do the disney half. Its all mental, just enjoy it.
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I've been following your story lately, and first let me say my heart goes out to you. One thing you might try (if you haven't yet) for the pill situation is to put them in spoonfuls of yogurt. My daughter was 7 when she had to start taking 4-5 pills a day for her Crohn's Disease. The first day it took 2 1/2 hours to get them down, and many tears (mostly mine)! Once she got the hang of not "looking" for the pills in the yogurt, it was much better. Good luck in this journey.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. If you can, get some walks or runs in just to get yourself some fresh air, it's healing.
ReplyDeleteI think you should do the princess half. It'll give you something to get away to. And, it's already paid for.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Snork. Mostly because I miss you and want to see you! So, selfish on my part. I really hope Baby gets to go home this weekend!!! Thingking good thoughts for you :D
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